In my dreams
It's easier it seems,
To admit that
Things between us
Were not what they seemed
The leaves fell
And the snow came
And still
It was always easier
In my dreams
Now its melting
And I stare
Through the clouds
Waiting for my eyes
To slip away
Back to that place
I looked up to a dark canvas,
as green light flitted by
-1 million years away
Somewhere up there
Across the sky
But I didn't understand it.
It is as if
The exact shade
Holds a place somewhere
Up there
A fleeting silliness,
Coating cracks
In my heart
Let us plant seeds within others gardens so that we may see the growth of our own souls. Let us uncover the veils sleeping upon aching hearts so that we might not bleed to deeply upon tattered sleeves. Does it frighten you when I say, life is a mere plaything? Counting blocks Connecting dots Lines arranged; a portrait of breathing landscapes— soft, frozen breath floating up towards the sky. I am planting seeds within a verdant garden knowing fully, that each virgin bud is promised nothing. Tick-tock says the clock: are you afraid to die? Drop, drop, falls the seed: shall you experience life? For now, I shall continue gardening.
What is beheld within human expression? Are we ignorant of death within our lack of discretion? & who are we to say that moonlights beams aren't all seeing? Drips of vanity fall like tears; lament crushed upon sin drenched feet & the enterprise of wealth rots within tombs of immortal lime while our sisters decay upon cobblestone streets. Is it absurd to look at the glory, the impediment of death as Moses laments: Virgin grass by morning withering to straw husks ablaze under new sun If but the days pass into morrow Do we posses the wisdom to precede? Perhaps; within our hearts after all
Where do we go when our eyes are closed? Do we wake in forests, black dirt cracked between our toes Do we find ourselves alone dark roads Take the highway home. In between the whispers slipping from cracked asphalt I'm counting seconds on twisted fingers, imperfect teeth, calloused feet. How many steps come between the expectations of wanting of being seeing in soft silence. When the lights go out are we finally home?
Soft sun shines meadows only in brightest yellows. Wheaten warmth waning only for the prettiest petals. Do not speak up the cardinal is silent in singular flight. Autumn brings oranges suspended soft cream Cracked shutters, one broken screen. The peeling paint, only lead if you taste. Wind blows children leaving the mighty Oak. Is she sad spending winter alone? "If you need a break someone will take your place" The mountains hold the city along their hips Spruce, Fir, clover Will-o-the-wisps. Can they hear our thoughts? Do they know what we do in the dark? While the willow sways I find the want to live in her place. I find the want I find the want Stuck in multi-frame time A dimensional oneness. This is all an illusion (allusion)
[The cherry blossoms] by beckybeckybeck, literature
Literature
[The cherry blossoms]
The cherry blossoms
fall in step;
Chronological time
day to night.
Soft, falling love letters—
How long can they go on?
The wheat that flows;
highway fields—
They don’t speak.
Yet I hear their whispers
existing in syllables,
dancing softly in sunlight
as we all pass them by.
& I wonder:
Are they afraid to die?
If this is the only way to be,
will we have our chance again?
Again before the house smells
of summer linen and thyme
Again before the sun kisses
stained French doors
Again before you forget
the feeling of hot pavement
on your callused feet
The wind keeps
singing in waves;
& I think the clouds
do not mind
wh
Do you remember
eating bananas by the pool/
the clinking of bottle rockets
nestled inside the neck
of a stolen O’ Douls?
Summer in the hills
was wild & green,
& us, we were
caught somewhere
in between,
growing up.
The days are longer
when they tell you,
it is too late.
Too late to fix it all;
put it in a neat box—
Somewhere safe,
where all your clothes
are bleached and stain free.
They give scholarships
to the summer girls,
while the winter girls
draw lines in the snow,
through the fields of
their hips, & the bows
beneath their lips.
Here, success is
simple arithmetic.
Grow and sow,
2.5 kids and gated homes.
Summer
Picking Berries at Dawn by beckybeckybeck, literature
Literature
Picking Berries at Dawn
Bursting violets in the iridescent rays—
Touching your chapped lips
to the honey sweet flesh,
touching them to life
caught before death.
Do the gulls ever crave pleasures
other than relief?
& who am I to keep
whispering these words
that are mundane; meek—
When the rain stops falling,
perhaps I will stop too.
Today, among the berries,
I am still in the silence
Caught among worlds,
Thistle & thorn—
Somewhere, this world moves
in ways I could but dream
& in the afternoon I will
carry these berries home,
away from the place where
they were meant to belong.
What does it mean,
calling home amongst
thistle & thorn?
Wher
In my dreams
It's easier it seems,
To admit that
Things between us
Were not what they seemed
The leaves fell
And the snow came
And still
It was always easier
In my dreams
Now its melting
And I stare
Through the clouds
Waiting for my eyes
To slip away
Back to that place
I looked up to a dark canvas,
as green light flitted by
-1 million years away
Somewhere up there
Across the sky
But I didn't understand it.
It is as if
The exact shade
Holds a place somewhere
Up there
A fleeting silliness,
Coating cracks
In my heart
Let us plant seeds within others gardens so that we may see the growth of our own souls. Let us uncover the veils sleeping upon aching hearts so that we might not bleed to deeply upon tattered sleeves. Does it frighten you when I say, life is a mere plaything? Counting blocks Connecting dots Lines arranged; a portrait of breathing landscapes— soft, frozen breath floating up towards the sky. I am planting seeds within a verdant garden knowing fully, that each virgin bud is promised nothing. Tick-tock says the clock: are you afraid to die? Drop, drop, falls the seed: shall you experience life? For now, I shall continue gardening.
What is beheld within human expression? Are we ignorant of death within our lack of discretion? & who are we to say that moonlights beams aren't all seeing? Drips of vanity fall like tears; lament crushed upon sin drenched feet & the enterprise of wealth rots within tombs of immortal lime while our sisters decay upon cobblestone streets. Is it absurd to look at the glory, the impediment of death as Moses laments: Virgin grass by morning withering to straw husks ablaze under new sun If but the days pass into morrow Do we posses the wisdom to precede? Perhaps; within our hearts after all
Where do we go when our eyes are closed? Do we wake in forests, black dirt cracked between our toes Do we find ourselves alone dark roads Take the highway home. In between the whispers slipping from cracked asphalt I'm counting seconds on twisted fingers, imperfect teeth, calloused feet. How many steps come between the expectations of wanting of being seeing in soft silence. When the lights go out are we finally home?
Soft sun shines meadows only in brightest yellows. Wheaten warmth waning only for the prettiest petals. Do not speak up the cardinal is silent in singular flight. Autumn brings oranges suspended soft cream Cracked shutters, one broken screen. The peeling paint, only lead if you taste. Wind blows children leaving the mighty Oak. Is she sad spending winter alone? "If you need a break someone will take your place" The mountains hold the city along their hips Spruce, Fir, clover Will-o-the-wisps. Can they hear our thoughts? Do they know what we do in the dark? While the willow sways I find the want to live in her place. I find the want I find the want Stuck in multi-frame time A dimensional oneness. This is all an illusion (allusion)
[The cherry blossoms] by beckybeckybeck, literature
Literature
[The cherry blossoms]
The cherry blossoms
fall in step;
Chronological time
day to night.
Soft, falling love letters—
How long can they go on?
The wheat that flows;
highway fields—
They don’t speak.
Yet I hear their whispers
existing in syllables,
dancing softly in sunlight
as we all pass them by.
& I wonder:
Are they afraid to die?
If this is the only way to be,
will we have our chance again?
Again before the house smells
of summer linen and thyme
Again before the sun kisses
stained French doors
Again before you forget
the feeling of hot pavement
on your callused feet
The wind keeps
singing in waves;
& I think the clouds
do not mind
wh
Do you remember
eating bananas by the pool/
the clinking of bottle rockets
nestled inside the neck
of a stolen O’ Douls?
Summer in the hills
was wild & green,
& us, we were
caught somewhere
in between,
growing up.
The days are longer
when they tell you,
it is too late.
Too late to fix it all;
put it in a neat box—
Somewhere safe,
where all your clothes
are bleached and stain free.
They give scholarships
to the summer girls,
while the winter girls
draw lines in the snow,
through the fields of
their hips, & the bows
beneath their lips.
Here, success is
simple arithmetic.
Grow and sow,
2.5 kids and gated homes.
Summer
Picking Berries at Dawn by beckybeckybeck, literature
Literature
Picking Berries at Dawn
Bursting violets in the iridescent rays—
Touching your chapped lips
to the honey sweet flesh,
touching them to life
caught before death.
Do the gulls ever crave pleasures
other than relief?
& who am I to keep
whispering these words
that are mundane; meek—
When the rain stops falling,
perhaps I will stop too.
Today, among the berries,
I am still in the silence
Caught among worlds,
Thistle & thorn—
Somewhere, this world moves
in ways I could but dream
& in the afternoon I will
carry these berries home,
away from the place where
they were meant to belong.
What does it mean,
calling home amongst
thistle & thorn?
Wher
You left a cool taste in my mouth
that September Sunday and I
remember walking to the Liberty.
They had the coldest refrigerators,
and once the berry tea touched my
throat I felt the residual steel liquify
its subarctic particulate, sliding
past my heart on the way down.
Does anyone ever ask you about death?
Or do you only think about how
your toes feel when Summer grass
is wet? I still feel it today.
We’re just playing hide and seek
and I guess I’m just not good,
not “well” I should say.
Me and you, not “you and I”
And I forgot to tell you that I
“cannot” come out tonight
because I
The PactFor Puabi
Low wind through the branches;
Moon veiled by clouds.
My balcony windows closed tightly,
To screen out noises loud.
Indoors, my room falls silent,
Expecting what will come;
A mystical alignment of the planets--
Earth, with Venus1, Jupiter2 and Mars3;
Mingled around them are twinkling clusters
Of brightly burning stars.
Faint whispers like the wind outdoors;
When all of these are done,
I am no longer so alone.
Two moist tender eyes gazing;
Looking into mine.
With one breath uttered by our two mouths,
We sealed a pact of love divine.
1.Ishtar
2.Marduk
3.Nergal, brother to Marduk
My fingertips speak;
sometimes without me.
Wisp, fragile seeds of Taraxacum,
floating, spinning;
amid a mid-winter night breeze.
What is right,
often lacks repose.
What is wrong,
perhaps dictates awakening;
Rousing softly,
rough warmth,
caressing my body.
Adamantine fingertips,
crashing waves throughout my hair.
If the roses could speak,
what would they say?
Perhaps that is a question,
existent upon another day.
If the sky was a cigarette,
I would smoke,
until every last alveoli,
filled with tar.
If my hair was sunshine,
I would lie it upon the warm, dewy grass;
Spread it across the cool cerulean sea,
just to see it dance across the viridescent blades,
and feel the effervescent, floating foam.
We're only just a metaphor,
for what we used to be,
perhaps,
for love we used to know.
He dips his strawberries in sugar,
frosting them with sweet, glittering snow flakes;
melting frost cascading from his lips.
Kiss me with your newfound crimson tongue.
Love me with your stained fingertips.
Press your warm body against mine.
I can smell the strawberries on your soft hair.
But don’t tell me that you love me,
because even summer berries wither from neglect,
and the sugar cannot replace the bitter taste of regret.
The mist rises across the mountains like the thoughts that hang in my memories.
Still and heavy, vast and aloft.
I still cannot see through it.
The snow falls hard.
The breeze whispers its dewy, December secrets along dying blades of grass.
I hear their soft mumblings in the loudest quiet of the night.
They speak without me.
I wanted to sink deep down into the dark cerulean sea mist.
I want to feel your heavy, soft, stone tumbled chest.
I can taste the salty foam on my lips and feel the brine within my hair tips.
The seaweed floats gently in tangles, weaving in and out of my marbled fingertips.
Melting into your lava lamp skin; we we
I am sitting underneath a fluorescent light.
I am sitting against the darkness on a cold autumn night; watching and waiting as my dreams float by.
Here ,it is all it ever was.
There, in the shadows of dawn, I am holding my shoulders up.
I am standing here with my eyes cast down.
I fly far from this place into a sunset of lukewarm air that inflates my lungs with tattered cloth and frayed violet braids.
I am sitting underneath a fluorescent bulb, looking to discover all that ever is.
Talk to me with your eyes and speak to me through your delicate hands.
We are rough and aloft in the mechanical breeze.
The gestures stick to the surface of
Paired by bridge less saturation,
Under the vortex tongue of gun light
You slithered a conglomerate of fiber optics,
Translucent to the aegis of my lies
Following a self destructive trajectory
Past the roots of my eyes
Into a sea engulfed cavity,
Where the crowned dome of some ancient structure
Plays canvass to a neurological tempest
Causing paranoia stricken waves to revolt and crash against each other
Here, thoughts dreaming of becoming sound drown
Faceless, ghostly buoys illogically mapping out the memory of a sea
The day the world went away by beckybeckybeck, literature
Literature
The day the world went away
I wanted to caress the Earth,
if only to feel the wide open sunlight on my undressed spine.
If I could cry, I would uncontrollably,
underneath the wavering stars,
that reflect high above untouched skies;
not into my dirty satin pillow, sobbing silently beside you,
in the darkest quiet of night.
If I could choose, I might lacerate my skin,
with the sleeping bark, buried beneath snow laden trees.
Perhaps solely to admire their ethereal beauty,
standing steadfast though the hurt.
I am told to regress with my words,
to ignore these landscapes and syllables for wherein my mind longs.
I am too small,
I am too large,
It does not matte
My name is becky. I am 22 years old living in a small town. I like to write about things that i observe so these are just some snippets. Nothing serious, just tiny blurbs of some old and new thoughts. A lot of my submissions are 1st, 2nd, 3rd drafts and not the final versions because i like to go back and reflect on previous thoughts.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
feelings from too many
Favourite Books
the bell jar
Favourite Writers
sylvia plath, walt whitman, tao quin, tolstoy, forever looking for more (thanks mr. ralston)
Tools of the Trade
college ruled paper and colored ink
Other Interests
philosophy, pyschology, sociology, english, writing, human anatomy